Category: Journal

My Open Broken Heart

25 August 2020

“We can’t selectively numb emotion. Numb the dark and you numb the light.” – Brene Brown, Daring Greatly They tell me to try a little harder to care a little less. Close that article to keep the truth out close the borders to keep those in need out close the windows to keep the smoke […]

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The Sound of The Rain

1 May 2020

Night is quiet in quarantine. I didn’t realise how loud it used to be. Now just the gentle sound of autumn rain and the drip drop of overflowing roofs and gutters full of brown, decaying leaves. It’s a mild night, almost warm – actually, come to think of it, isn’t it too warm for this […]

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The Last Thing of Me

27 November 2019

My heart cannot cope with the concept of impermanence and so when the blossoms of spring melt off their branches, it hurts. Endings are natural but so is pain. We’re still in springtime, you and I. Or at least I hope we are, I hope that winter’s so far away that it will remain abstract […]

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CPTSD

6 October 2019

I’ve only recently begun to truly accept and comprehend the traumas of my childhood and through this comes a new understanding of the depressions that I’ve always experienced through my life which perhaps could be better explained as implicit or emotional flashbacks. I am in the midst of one currently and I feel… a bit […]

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The Passionately Apathetic

15 May 2019

I’ve been thinking recently that there’s a certain sort of person in the world who could be described as “passionately apathetic”. You know the sort, they remain steadfastly disinterested, apolitical and “unemotional”… until they encounter someone who cares about something and is speaking up about it, in other words, someone who is simply passionate. The […]

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Childless Women

12 May 2019

We are just childless women but you like to call us selfish women. While you preach your gospel of family values and hide away in your homogenous houses. Hey, now that the Arctic is melting and now that our planet is dying… where are you? There. We see you. Expelling your energy policing our wombs. […]

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The Creeper

3 May 2019

Those of us who experience the world as women and girls (inclusive of transgender, non-binary folks, etc) know all about predators, in fact it has been my observation that as we age we develop an acute sense for them, that feeling in your gut, that discomfort that’s difficult to express in words but which tells […]

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Rebecca Solnit: When the Hero is the Problem

3 April 2019

Positive social change results mostly from connecting more deeply to the people around you than rising above them, from coordinated rather than solo action. Among the virtues that matter are those traditionally considered feminine rather than masculine, more nerd than jock: listening, respect, patience, negotiation, strategic planning, storytelling. But we like our lone and exceptional […]

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The Climate Crisis and Colonialism

1 April 2019

There once was a time when we thought that nature’s gifts were endless, boundless, for us. The taking and taming of land was our birthright and animals were just things for us to use, consume, abuse. Much of those attitudes remain with us today. When I say “we” and “us” I refer to the white […]

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My Little Trauma

25 March 2019

Some memories spoil other memories. My last memories of you have tarnished all the ones that came before. Even after all this time, the recollections that should be fond are quickly followed by that sick feeling I had when I was so utterly alone, broken and vulnerable with you lying right beside me. I don’t […]

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